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December 30, 2002

Unexciting day

I worked today. Worked on a bunch of issues and caught up on email. Registered a couple of domains... Got the Soekris on but I need a newer image of emBSD on it. Qwest overbilled me for a phone call and this lady in their customer service department was a complete jerk. So tomorrow I'll call, try a little bit more and then send them correspondance along with a copy of the FCC complaint I'll file.

Phone companies suck. I hope Qwest goes out of business.

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December 29, 2002


For some reason I've been wanting new toys besides the ones at Christmas. A friend is sending me a Soekris 4501 box that will run embsd and most likely take over my firewall's duties. It's basically a tiny 486 DX 133 with 3 ethernet ports, serial, and a compact pci slot for either wireless or a crypto accelerator. This will free up my 400mhz HP Kayak workstation allowing me to do much cooler things with its horsepower. I bought a stick of 128mb of memory for it off of Ebay today to give it a little more oomph.

As an aside, I really need to dig more into coding some stuff to keep my mind busy instead of all these nifty hardware gadgets. All these things are cluttering the place worse.

House is a mess, must clean before junk swallows me whole.

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December 28, 2002


I started shopping for cds and movies at secondspin.com which has used cds and dvds for great prices. Anyway I had a shopping cart with a couple of cds and dvds that I decided to finish off and buy today. I'm one of those types of people that if I'm ordering something online, I'll pick a bunch of items, wonder if there are things I want that I'm forgetting, and just let sit there only to decide 2 days later that I don't want to spend that much money. That's what my mind goes through all the time when it comes to making purchases I know I probably don't need but I want.

What spurred it all is that the E.T. dvd will only be on sale through the 31st of December so I decided to pick that up as well as the Lord of The Rings gift set.

So today I got:

A.I. 2 disc special edition
Beauty And The Beast platinum edition (One of the only disney animated) movies I like
The Distinguished Gentleman (Eddie Murphy)
Liar Liar DTS version (No explanation needed)
Royal Tenenbaums Criterion collection (Great cast and screenplay)
Usual Suspects special edition (Have regular but want anamorphic and Dolby 5.1 version)
We Were Soldiers (One of the best war movies I've seen besides Private Ryan etc)
E.T. - Ultimate Gift Boxed Set (No more after Dec 31st and I couldn't deprive myself or my future children of it)
The Lord of the Rings - Platinum Series Extended Edition Collector's Gift Set (Same as E.T.)

Maybe some more blogging madness tonight from work.

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December 27, 2002

Holiday break winding down

Well, I spent about 8 hours having a fit configuring the wireless lan stuff last night. I got a Lucent/Proxim/Agere/Orinoco RG1100 residential gateway and pc card for my laptop. Well in an attempt to do some securing, I decided I wanted to stick the wireless network in its own segment of the network. After locking myself out of the wireless access point a couple of times, around 4am I got it working again but didn't finish up the firewall configuration. I went to bed and this morning I finished everything up.

Anyway so today I've had a little bit of fun using my laptop on battery and working from the comfort of a nice fluffy chair.

Everyone these days is says in their blog how they are trying to avoid politics but as the situation escalates with N. Korea, it's not hard to see how a pissing contest can blow out. What if the Cuban missle crisis would've escalated and nuclear war broke out? How close were we and how much father does the current situation have to go?

Tomorrow I have to work but with my new found toy, I may hook up the gps to the laptop and let kismet or netstumbler run and see who's got wireless networks up.

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December 25, 2002

funny faces


Happy holidays to everyone. In the spirit of showing others that you care by giving them material possessions, we exchanged gifts this morning. I think that giving does give me more pleasure than recieving things. Maybe someday I'll become a world-class philanthropist.

We ate good food. Took a lot of pictures with my SLR camera and supplemented them with some digital pictures from my coolpix.

I'm pretty excited about getting my 802.11 stuff set up when Kris and I go home. Right now we've spent the last 2 nights out here at her father's house with the whole family. It's been a pretty nice time but I still miss my family a lot.

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December 23, 2002

things taken and given

Most of us are very fortunate people yet losing things that are important to us is devastating. How about multiple things very near and dear to us being taken away in a short period of time?

I thought to myself today about how things we have most likely will be gone at some point in time. The key word being time. How often do you hear "If any more happens right now, I don't think I can handle it." or "Now isn't a good time for things to go wrong." Well... time is something we can't control yet it's one of the key elements in dictating how we feel when things happen.

Reflecting on everything, this year has been tough. I've lost a future mother-in-law to CJD and an uncle to heart disease. I also believe bad things come in threes.

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December 21, 2002

fairly unproductive day

It was just another day. Got up a bit later and didn't do much but around 7pm Kris and I started clearing out the spare bedroom. We're cleaning it up in anticipation of getting a trundle bed, removing her spare queen sized bed and putting in another desk as well. I need to go up into the attic to figure out how I'm going to run cable and networking in there too. Overall I hope to make it a kick ass room that either her or I can work or relax in when we want to.

Just going through her stuff and realizing how much junk I've brought over here is amazing. It really allows you to notice how small this place is when you don't have room to store anything. Oh and our new house WILL HAVE A BASEMENT.

Other than that, I spent the day musing the web and looking at PC hardware mod sites. I've gotten the itch to put a nice lcd on my case to do nothing. More toys to keep my easily bored mind occupied. It sucks though because I feel like it drains my wallet, adds junk to the house and only satisifes me for a short while. I do like tinkering much more with hardware than software though. Maybe that will change if I seriously try to write some code for openbsd to control the HP Maxilife display panel on the front of our "router". I also need more hard disk space.

Posted by beamz at 11:45 PM | Comments (0)

calm day

Went to work, went downtown to eat a Christmas lunch with the team, met up with Kris, her aunt, sister, cousin and cousin's little baby boy. After that I had to clear up a sizable cell phone bill at work which was about 4.5 times the amount of my usual $35 bill. It was all the midnight phone calls and people trying to track me down when I wasn't sitting at a desk.

Finished up some Christmas shopping in the middle of the day and after work which was nice. Came home, ate dinner, watched some TiVo, got on irc for a little while, ate dinner etc.

Conversations of interest:
Discussed concept of having every middle eastern male on a temp visa visit the INS being pretty much a bunch of crap to put it mildly. If you want to round up the usual suspects, call it what it is, if you don't want to call it what it is, make EVERYONE on a temp visa visit the INS. Like Doc Searls noted from someone, like a terrorist is going to voluntarily go to the INS if he/she is in violation of their visa. COME ON. GIVE ME A FLIPPING BREAK.

Second conversation was regarding how apparently all women are untrustworthy and "love" is not real.

Later realization: surrounded by athiests (maybe just an observation at a particular moment in time which doesn't lend credibility to the majority).

Also discovered that Xzibit the rapper used (some would say ripped up) Pavane Opus 50 in his track Paparazzi after hearing a rendition done by Joolz Gianni on the Classic Chillout Vol 1. Disc 2.

I really can't wait for the holidays to commence. I have to crack down on some homework but other than that, I'm at peace with things and I'm content.

Are you?

Posted by beamz at 12:29 AM | Comments (0)

December 18, 2002


Well... Even though I feel like crap (those words don't begin to do justice to how I feel right now), I managed to stumble over an incredible song.

The song is called Silver by Joolz Gianni. I don't know how to describe it but it has a sax, an opera singer, kickass beats. It's on the Classic Chillout set Vol. 1. Here's a sample of the track.

Good music doesn't take the fever away but it's a little euphoric.

Posted by beamz at 10:23 PM | Comments (0)

being sick sucks

I just decided to get sick today in the span of about four hours. Came home and took a 3 hour nap all the while feeling like I couldn't manage to get warm. I felt achy and knew something was wrong but I don't think I've had the flu/fever for about 4-5 years. Well the digital thermometer said 100.7 but about 4 hours after taking tylenol, it's down to 99.8.

Aside from running myself into the ground and being busy every day for the past 2 weeks, life has been intense.

I ordered a bunch of prints from ofoto as gifts for people this holiday season so we'll see how they look. We're also waiting on 8x10's of our engagement pictures. One of the gifts I got Kris absolutely rocks, of course I have yet to get her the 2nd gift and I worry it won't be in stock. Doh! Hopefully I can get it or get it on order. There won't be many small gifts, I guess since we're on a smaller budget this year, it's ok.

Anyway... I gotta go crash and try to get better. I'll try to update more frequently.

Posted by beamz at 6:10 PM | Comments (0)

December 15, 2002

Work + Christmas preparations

Well I ended up going to a house-warming party with Kris and meeting a friend of hers who mentored her years ago. He was a very nice person and we sat and talked for awhile. Since we all enjoyed discussing technical things, he spent a lot of the time talking to us instead of the other guests.

Went to work to train some people. Ever get the feeling that nobody wants to listen and has their own agenda? Well that's what it was like. Many had their own opinion on what should and shouldn't be done and best practices. Sure we'll take their input but I just got the feeling that it didn't matter who had the best idea, just that we used theirs.

After that I went to meet up with Kris and her family who were dectorating a Christmas tree. The tree was huge (at least 10ft) and I took a bunch of pictures with the digital camera. It sucks though, everything was out of focus. I need to post a message on the dpreview boards and see if other people have had issues. Taking pictures of people was fine but the Christmas tree picture taking was crap. I think I'm going to use my n90s for at least half of the pictures when Christmas rolls around. I also need to finish up my shopping.

I have stained socks because of new shoes. I got a brown and black pair this weekend from my favorite shoemaker, Johnston and Murphy. The shoes last really really long so I love every pair I get from them.

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December 13, 2002

it's friday

work was busy. persistant issues with lack of commitment from those who support the systems. i feel like i have to tell someone 10 times to do something before it gets done.

went christmas shopping with Kris for others. she pointed out some nice coach purses she wants. joy joy joy bringing joy to others.

last two days have been uneventful. rather hectic, annoying, exciting, frustrating. it's the holiday season, it's supposed to feel like this. (or maybe not)

lots going on in the news lately, don't you wish it would just come to a climax?

Posted by beamz at 11:37 PM | Comments (0)

December 11, 2002

Old friends...

I went out to dinner with my buddies from Denmark. We had a gas and I met a new person who is in training. She was a very nice person to talk to who is a well seasoned traveler. We talked a bit about Asia because she spent something like 3 months backpacking and exploring Thailand, Malaysia and Indonesia. Anyway I love making new friends, and it's wonderful to see the old ones as well.

Tomorrow is the department Christmas pitch in which should be alright. I've been pretty isolated from people while I've been working offsite but generally this week looks like it's starting off good. An old friend of mine tried to contact me via irc last night but I wasn't around. I really don't know how to feel about it. It was one of those "net" things but more. Anyway I'm interested to see how she's doing, I haven't talked to her in years, well since I broke things off really. Confusing times.

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December 9, 2002

New host and the weekend

Looks like almost all of the DNS has propogated out and we're up and running on the new servers. I'm excited because they are cheaper, hosted at Internap's data center in Boston, and offer more features. I will miss the old vbb forum of Futurequest which provided great support and a CTO who was practically a one man show married to his wife and job. I just hope I'll be able to recieve comparable service and support here at FluidHosting.

On Saturday we spent hours completing the wedding gift registry stuff. We spent 3 hours in linens and things only to leave with a nonexistent list that accidentally got combined with the previous couple's list. The lady promised to manually key everything in for us, Sunday morning that wasn't the case but today Kris checked and everything is there. I'm glad it worked out.

Last night was rather crappy, I got paged starting at 2am regarding some problems with our cartloaders (devices which take bundles of newspapers and place them in carts that get ejected). Apparently they were having a lot of trouble but I couldn't get ahold of anyone for 30-45 minutes which pissed me off. Finally I got ahold of someone who told me that they rebooted the machine and it went away. Got paged again at 3am with same problem but I couldn't get ahold of anyone so I sent out a mail and went back to bed.

Our pagination system vendor is in town this week. I haven't been working much with them over the past year or two but I've got great ties with the guys from Denmark. We're going to hook up tomorrow evening for dinner and pool (I suck at pool). I absolutely love working and hanging out with them.

Of course I like any small bit of change that comes my way as long as it is good.

Posted by beamz at 10:15 PM | Comments (0)

December 8, 2002

First posting on new host

I've been spending the past 2 days moving things from my old web host to my new one. Of course DNS has probably yet to propagate so we'll have to see how smoothly things go.

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December 6, 2002

My head hurts.

Today started out bad when I tried to look for my badge (haven't had it for the past 4 days) and couldn't find it. Not having a badge makes parking downtown fairly difficult.

I haven't been downtown in about a month and a half and oh how things have changed. While I was gone, there were some major moves going on with IT management moving down into the wing of the building where my team sits as well as 3 other IT teams moving into the same vicinity. My desk has been moved and cube walls put up which is somewhat nice. There is a bit more isolation now and not as much of a "team" thing going on. I had a good meeting regarding my offsite exit plan at our press facility and completion of my project. I'll miss working out there as I have enjoyed the opportunity immensely.

Well around 3pm my head decided to hurt really bad and I became nauseous. I decided at 4:30 to leave work and go home because the last time this happened this bad, I puked at work. NO FUN. So I went home (skipping class) and chilled for about two and a half hours. About that time I was feeling better and looking at the clock, I had only missed about 1.5 hours of class. So instead of regretting it and getting an absense in a 5 session course, I went. Class was good, we're discussing a lot of human resource management stuff. I need to paste this somewhere constantly in view but basically "Quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to anger."

If one thing that I realize, it's that I need to let people express themselves completely (within reason) before I speak so I get a chance to see their view and not make them feel cut off.

OH!!!! And Ashley Judd was downtown in our newsroom with Bono and Chris Tucker doing some meeting with the Star's editorial board. Too bad I missed her and had to back up to the PPC (Pulliam Production Centre, the offsite press facility).

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December 4, 2002

piksure fun


I took this picture a week or two ago and it was one of those moments when you were glad you had your camera with you. There was a nice dense fog and the sun was coming up. It was weird because on my way to work that morning, midway through the drive I noticed that the sky was getting cloudy and nasty. It was just nice to see nature showing its beauty.

Today was a somewhat busy day. Lately I've been a little bit more irritable than usual and I'm unsure of why. Sometimes it's as if I'm thinking 100 miles a minute but things aren't really getting done, the same discussions are happening and we've got down to the bone of the problems but still can't figure things out.

It's just *that* feeling.

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December 3, 2002

Phones... Phones...


Yes I love electronic gadgets. I used to play with legos and constructs when I was a kid so now I've moved up to digital cameras, cell phones, computers etc. I don't spend every dime I have on things, I just tend to research them to death and make sure I'm getting the *best*. Which leads me to...

I had the company Cingular sales rep bring me a new GSM phone (nifty new system that allows your phone to work in 170+ countries depending on the phone's capabilities). Yes I don't need this but the new phone looks nice, has neat blue lights, has an FM radio etc etc. I probably won't use 1/10th of the features but I love it. Unfortunately the model I love is rife with software problems and will need to be returned. In a couple of weeks they should have things fixed so for now I'll go back to my nice, big, and slow (didn't seem that way 2 years ago) Nokia 7160.

Since I don't have a cell phone, I'm ultra-paranoid someone is going to try to get ahold of me and can't but I guess that never stopped them before. And no, I don't think my phone is a tether, I don't use it that often, and I actually enjoy it when work calls and I get the opportunity to help out.

See out there despite all the ranting and raving people say about being tied to a cell phone, when in crisis-mode, people love to be important and help out. Oh well, it's nice to watch so many pretend that they hate their jobs (which I'm sure some do) and who hate wearing pagers and cell phones. Yes it can get quite irritating at times but luckily for me, it's not that way.

Nothing else really new except that my mother did not need the inkjet printer I got her for her birthday. Apparently her "complaining" was just "complaining" and the one she had really wasn't a "piece of shit". Combined with the fact that Gateway's Accessory store has this really neat 15 day return policy which I just happen to be 1 week past, well I've now got a useless Epson C62 that I'm willing to part with for $60 plus shipping or best offer.

I got Kris sick too. She's not having any fun.

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December 2, 2002


Sorry for the bad linking, it's all fixed now. The only things corrected were the references to the other blogs I was reading.

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December 1, 2002

End of Thanksgiving holiday

Hope everyone had a nice holiday. Friday was a fairly calm day at work and I managed to get out at a decent time. I went to my apartment for lunch and clean things up before my parents came into town. We went out to Kris's parents house to hang out with her sister before she left to go back to school. I think my allergies combined with her dad having a cold got me sick.

So on Saturday morning I woke up with a terrible sore throat that got better as the morning progressed. My mom called around 1pm and said they were on their way. We made reservations at one of the nicer italian resturants called Sangiovese which was good. The waiter pissed me off because my mom wanted their "house" salad to which the waiter replied, "Ma'am we don't have a house salad." She said well what do you have and he said, "Well whatever is in the menu" and she had taken her reading glasses off. He finally said you can have our blah blah blah which is like a house salad. I guess I could've made a really big issue out of it but I decided not to. I still think I shouldn't have given him the 20% gratuity on a $130 bill.

Anyway we had a nice dinner none the less and spent some time today bonding. I've pretty much laid down my guns in terms of my distaste for her boyfriend. I guess being standoffish isn't so great but I think it's taken me about 9 months to come around to this point. I don't approve of a lot of the things he does, but he's human like us all.

This week will probably be a somewhat busy one and all the weekends riding up to the holidays will be busy as well. I need to take some time off.

If you're bored and looking for a reason to get pissed off, I was perusing Doc Searl's blog when I saw an Sifry's blog pointing to Dan Gillmor's blog with this entry:

"Washington Post: In Terror War, 2nd Track for Suspects. The Bush administration is developing a parallel legal system in which terrorism suspects -- U.S. citizens and noncitizens alike -- may be investigated, jailed, interrogated, tried and punished without legal protections guaranteed by the ordinary system."

Also I read a Salon.com book review of "War Is a Force That Gives Us Meaning" by Chris Hedges. It just reminds me of Clockwork Orange in some strange way where war serves no real purpose except to keep the adrenaline rush going. The review itself goes into much more depth and I can't give it any real justice so go ahead and read the review or perhaps the book itself.

There's a lot of interesting stuff out there, wish I had time to suck it all in.

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