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March 31, 2003

"Advisers Split as War Unfolds (washingtonpost.com)"

Advisers Split as War Unfolds (washingtonpost.com)

I can't let this one pass either. It goes into great detail on the split in the Bush administration. It's becoming more clear that the original plan implemented by the Bush administration was a big miscalculation.

Posted by beamz at 8:44 AM | Comments (0)

Peter Arnett cut off by NBC

CNN.com - Peter Arnett: U.S. war plan has 'failed' - Mar. 31, 2003

NBC and Natl. Geographic have severed ties with Peter Arnett after he said that the U.S. war plan has "failed" and that "Clearly, the American war planners misjudged the determination of the Iraqi forces."

NBC has retracted their statement of support quoted in the CNN article stating they have severed ties and he is no longer reporting for NBC and MSNBC.

Posted by beamz at 8:30 AM | Comments (0)

Noam Chomsky on the war

Infoshop News - Chomsky: Iraq as a Trial Run

There is a lot of food for thought for people on both sides of the fence. Here are some snippets:

"The most dramatic case is Turkey. Turkey is a vulnerable country, vulnerable to U.S. punishment and inducements. Nevertheless, the new government, I think to everyone's surprise, did maintain the position of about 90 per cent of its population. Turkey is bitterly condemned for that here, just as France and Germany are bitterly condemned because they took the position of the overwhelming majority of their populations. The countries that are praised are countries like Italy and Spain, whose leaders agreed to follow orders from Washington over the opposition of maybe 90 per cent of their populations.

That is another new step. I cannot think of another case where hatred and contempt for democracy have so openly been proclaimed, not just by the government, but also by liberal commentators and others. There is now a whole literature trying to explain why France, Germany, the so-called "old Europe", and Turkey and others are trying to undermine the United States. It is inconceivable to the pundits that they are doing so because they take democracy seriously and they think that when the overwhelming majority of a population has an opinion, a government ought to follow it."

and...

"Compare North Korea and Iraq. Iraq is defenceless and weak; in fact, the weakest regime in the region. While there is a horrible monster running it, it does not pose a threat to anyone else. North Korea, on the other hand, does pose a threat. North Korea, however, is not attacked for a very simple reason: it has a deterrent. It has a massed artillery aimed at Seoul, and if the United States attacks it, it can wipe out a large part of South Korea.

So the United States is telling the countries of the world: if you are defenceless, we are going to attack you when we want, but if you have a deterrent, we will back off, because we only attack defenceless targets. In other words, it is telling countries that they had better develop a terrorist network and weapons of mass destruction or some other credible deterrent; if not, they are vulnerable to "preventive war"."

Posted by beamz at 1:35 AM | Comments (0)

March 30, 2003

A cheap war

BBC NEWS | Americas | Rumsfeld 'wanted cheap war'

This news has been out for awhile but it has been alleged that Rumsfeld overruled Tommy Franks advice on how to procede with the war. Apparently cruise missiles were supposed to do the job.

It is way early on in the war but the controversy surrounding it makes me want it to come to a conclusion sooner. I still think the wool is being pulled over everyone's eyes and I think it's time for people to show their cards.

Posted by beamz at 5:16 PM | Comments (0)

Appreciation of our Freedom

I watched this weeks Real Time with Bill Maher and of course a good portion of the discussion centered around war. I've expressed my opinions about it in some forums that I frequent and when I state my position perhaps disagreeing with the reasons why we are in Iraq, I get bombarded with comments on how a brutal dictator needs to be removed. It seems like it's so easy for people to ignore our human rights track record and even the ideas behind pre-emptive strikes. They also are quick to say anti-war people should be shot or silenced in some fashion because they have no real appreciation for what the soldiers are supposedly fighting for.

Anyway Janeane Garofolo made a perfect point and that was that those who say that anti-war protestors have no clue and should shut up are really acting Un-American in a way. The right to voice ones opinion is something that must continue even in the face of a controversial war.

I'm tired of people insinuating that the majority of those against the war 1) don't support America's children on the battlefield and 2) are either Un-American, unpatriotic or some other nonsense.

I just had to get that off my chest.

Posted by beamz at 4:04 AM | Comments (0)

Johnny Cash's latest

I heard Johnny Cash's cover Nine Inch Nails song called "Hurt". I don't think I've ever really listened to Johnny Cash, there was something about the song and his legacy that hooked me. So today while out shopping I picked it up and it has covers of Bridge Over Troubled Water and the Beatles song In My Life. As a review on Amazon.com puts it, "...one of the most autobiographical albums of the 70-year old singer-songwriter’s career."

It's just interesting to hear someone lyrically reflect on their life. The bonus DVD with the "Hurt" video was very good too with imagery of him both younger and older, his wife, crucifixion, and other lyrically influenced images.

Posted by beamz at 2:07 AM | Comments (0)

March 29, 2003

Sorry I haven't updated lately.

Sorry I haven't updated lately. I have been busy. I'm enjoying the freedom that our soldiers are fighting for under orders from their commander in chief.

Posted by beamz at 4:51 PM | Comments (0)

March 28, 2003

Blogs and personal empowerment

With all the brouhaha surrounding blogs, especially warblogs these days, I've started to develop my thoughts more on the concept of empowering people. Blogs like Dear Raed and others that are making headlines show how this can be a very good medium. I did discuss how blogging depending on the audience and objectives naturally forms a circle of exclusivity around it. This isn't a bad thing, it's natural in human social interaction. However when promoting the tools and medium as Joi Ito has been, one must be careful not to exclude people because it can defeat the purpose of providing individuals with a voice by limiting exposure.

Posted by beamz at 2:30 PM | Comments (0)

Disabled Agonist RSS feed

I've disabled the Agonist web feed due to the fact that it isn't formatted too well to work with the side bar.

Posted by beamz at 1:37 PM | Comments (0)

Agonist RSS feed up

I've added an RSS feed which is updated every 15 minutes. I'll try it out to see how well it goes. I also spent a little bit of time getting my cell phone to work with wapblogger which I might taken advantage of so I can put thoughts immediately up instead of thinking about them and forgetting them a couple hours later.

Posted by beamz at 4:29 AM | Comments (0)

March 27, 2003

American Hypocrisy Part 1: Human Rights

Tragically, individuals from a supply convoy were captured. I mirrored the Al Jazeera video awhile back but didn't say much about the matter. In the many discussions I've gotten into about the war, people always tell how bad Saddam Husein is and how he needs to be removed from power. Brutal dictators do need to be dealt with but hypocrisy should be avoided. The Geneva Convention dictates certain standards and for us to flame Iraq and Al Jazeera for showing our captured soldiers on TV but ignore the pictures we showed of the Al Qaeda POWs in Afghanistan who have been held for over a year without any status declaration, representation, or contact with their families is purely unjust.

Salon.com | Bush's human rights hypocrisy

[via The Agonist] "WHAT IS AN "UNLAWFUL COMBATANT," AND WHY IT MATTERS: The Status Of Detained Al Qaeda And Taliban Fighters "

[via The Agonist] CBS Attorney Andrew Cohen's take on the POWs which mentions nothing about Al Qaedo POWs in Guantanamo Bay.

Posted by beamz at 2:07 PM | Comments (0)

March 26, 2003

8,000 less Iraqi's surrendered.

"The US military has been forced to admit the 8,000 Iraqi soldiers they claimed to have captured last week are now battling British forces." I was wondering why we haven't seen the Iraqi's surrendering in herds. [via Ananova.com]

US aid for Afghansitan:
Take a look at this neat animation from Mark Fiore. (Flash required)

Posted by beamz at 7:53 PM | Comments (0)

I can't help myself

[via Inkie's Blog]
A WARMONGER EXPLAINS WAR TO A PEACENIK
By Victor Forsythe

Dedicated to the Love it or Leave it crowd

PeaceNik: Why did you say we are invading Iraq?

WarMonger: We are invading Iraq because it is in violation of
security council resolution 1441. A country cannot be allowed to
violate security council resolutions.

PN: But I thought many of our allies, including Israel, were in
violation of more security council resolutions than Iraq.

WM: It's not just about UN resolutions. The main point is that Iraq
could have weapons of mass destruction, and the first sign of a
smoking gun could well be a mushroom cloud over NY.

PN: Mushroom cloud? But I thought the weapons inspectors
said Iraq had no nuclear weapons.

WM: Yes, but biological and chemical weapons are the issue.

PN: But I thought Iraq did not have any long range missiles for
attacking us or our allies with such weapons.

WM: The risk is not Iraq directly attacking us, but rather terrorist
networks that Iraq could sell the weapons to.

PN: But couldn't virtually any country sell chemical or biological
materials? We sold quite a bit to Iraq in the eighties ourselves,
didn't we?

WM: That's ancient history. Look, Saddam Hussein is an evil
man that has an undeniable track record of repressing his own
people since the early eighties. He gasses his enemies.
Everyone agrees that he is apower- hungry lunatic murderer.

PN: We sold chemical and biological materials to a power-
hungry lunatic murderer?

WM: The issue is not what we sold, but rather what Saddam did.
He is the one that launched a pre-emptive first strike on Kuwait.

PN: A pre-emptive first strike does sound bad. But didn't our
ambassador to Iraq, April Gillespie, know about and green-light
theinvasion of Kuwait?

WM: Let's deal with the present, shall we? As of today, Iraq could
sell its biological and chemical weapons to Al Quaida. Osama
Bin Ladenhimself released an audio tape calling on Iraqis to
suicide-attack us, proving a partnership between the two.

PN: Osama Bin Laden? Wasn't the point of invading Afghanistan
to kill him?

WM: Actually, it's not 100% certain that it's really Osama Bin
Laden on the tapes. But the lesson from the tape is the same:
there could easily be a partnership between al-Qaida and
Saddam Hussein unless we act.

PN: Is this the same audio tape where Osama Bin Laden labels
Saddam a secular infidel?

WM: You're missing the point by just focusing on the tape.
Powell presented a strong case against Iraq.

PN: He did?

WM: Yes, he showed satellite pictures of an Al Quaeda poison
factory in Iraq.

PN: But didn't that turn out to be a harmless shack in the part of
Iraq controlled by the Kurdish opposition?

WM: And a British intelligence report...

PN: Didn't that turn out to be copied from an out-of-date graduate
student paper?

WM: And reports of mobile weapons labs...

PN: Weren't those just artistic renderings?

WM: And reports of Iraquis scuttling and hiding evidence from
inspectors...

PN: Wasn't that evidence contradicted by the chief weapons
inspector, Hans Blix?

WM: Yes, but there is plenty of other hard evidence that cannot
be revealed because it would compromise our security.

PN: So there is no publicly available evidence of weapons of
mass destruction in Iraq?

WM: The inspectors are not detectives, it's not their JOB to find
evidence. You're missing the point.

PN: So what is the point?

WM: The main point is that we are invading Iraq because
resolution 1441 threatened "severe consequences." If we do not
act, the security council will become an irrelevant debating
society.

PN: So the main point is to uphold the rulings of the security
council?

WM: Absolutely ...unless it rules against us.

PN: And what if it does rule against us?

WM: In that case, we must lead a coalition of the willing to invade
Iraq.

PN: Coalition of the willing? Who's that?

WM: Britain, Turkey, Bulgaria, Spain, and Italy, for starters.

PN: I thought Turkey refused to help us unless we gave them
tens of billions of dollars.

WM: Nevertheless, they may now be willing.

PN: I thought public opinion in all those countries was against
war.

WM: Current public opinion is irrelevant. The majority expresses
its will by electing leaders to make decisions.

PN: So it's the decisions of leaders elected by the majority that is
important?

WM: Yes.

PN: But George Bush wasn't elected by voters. He was selected
by the U.S. Supreme C...-

WM: I mean, we must support the decisions of our leaders,
however they were elected, because they are acting in our best
interest. This is about being a patriot. That's the bottom line.

PN: So if we do not support the decisions of the president, we
are not patriotic?

WM: I never said that.

PN: So what are you saying? Why are we invading Iraq?

WM: As I said, because there is a chance that they have
weapons of mass destruction that threaten us and our allies.

PN: But the inspectors have not been able to find any such
weapons.

WM: Iraq is obviously hiding them.

PN: You know this? How?

WM: Because we know they had the weapons ten years ago,
and they are still unaccounted for.

PN: The weapons we sold them, you mean?

WM: Precisely.

PN: But I thought those biological and chemical weapons would
degrade to an unusable state over ten years.

WM: But there is a chance that some have not degraded.

PN: So as long as there is even a small chance that such
weapons exist, we must invade?

WM: Exactly.

PN: But North Korea actually has large amounts of usable
chemical, biological, AND nuclear weapons, AND long range
missiles that can reach the west coast AND it has expelled
nuclear weapons inspectors, AND threatened to turn America
into a sea of fire.

WM: That's a diplomatic issue.

PN: So why are we invading Iraq instead of using diplomacy?

WM: Aren't you listening? We are invading Iraq because we
cannot allow the inspections to drag on indefinitely. Iraq has
been delaying, deceiving, and denying for over ten years, and
inspections cost us tens of millions.

PN: But I thought war would cost us tens of billions.

WM: Yes, but this is not about money. This is about security.

PN: But wouldn't a pre-emptive war against Iraq ignite radical
Muslim sentiments against us, and decrease our security?

WM: Possibly, but we must not allow the terrorists to change the
way we live. Once we do that, the terrorists have already won.

PN: So what is the purpose of the Department of Homeland
Security, color-coded terror alerts, and the Patriot Act? Don't
these change
the way we live?

WM: I thought you had questions about Iraq.

PN: I do. Why are we invading Iraq?

WM: For the last time, we are invading Iraq because the world
has called on Saddam Hussein to disarm, and he has failed to
do so. He must now face the consequences.

PN: So, likewise, if the world called on us to do something, such
as find a peaceful solution, we would have an obligation to
listen?

WM: By "world", I meant the United Nations.

PN: So, we have an obligation to listen to the United Nations?

WM: By "United Nations" I meant the Security Council.

PN: So, we have an an obligation to listen to the Security
Council?

WM: I meant the majority of the Security Council.

PN: So, we have an obligation to listen to the majority of the
Security Council?

WM: Well... there could be an unreasonable veto.

PN: In which case?

WM: In which case, we have an obligation to ignore the veto.

PN: And if the majority of the Security Council does not support
us at all?

WM: Then we have an obligation to ignore the Security Council.

PN: That makes no sense.

WM: If you love Iraq so much, you should move there. Or maybe
France, with the all the other cheese-eating surrender monkeys.
It's time to boycott their wine and cheese, no doubt about that.

PN: I give up!


Please get active! The war may be just hours away!

- Vic Forsythe

Posted by beamz at 11:15 AM | Comments (1)

Is it still prudent to protest?

Let me preface this with the statement that I support the people fighting on the front lines. However while watching Bill Maher's Real Time show on HBO, he posed an interesting question to his panel. For those against the war, is it still prudent to be protesting it? Tim Robbins responded with, "If not now when, after 5 casualties, 500, 5000?"

Posted by beamz at 2:27 AM | Comments (0)

March 25, 2003

one of those days

It's raining and rain always makes me feel sluggish. Ninety-five percent of all of our wedding invitations have been sent out. Less than two months to go. Wow time creeps up on you...

War rant:
It was bad when we declared "war on terror". It was bad when we declared war on the "axis of evil". It was bad when we declared war on "Iraq". Now instead of terror, this war is for liberating people? WTF.

I think that I would've been ok with things if we were much more prepared for this war. As it stands we've used almost half of our tomahawk missiles in Iraq. Initially it was reported that Cheney and his civilian war planners said we would need no more than 60,000 troops to win a war with Iraq. The battle of Umm Qasr lasted much longer than anticipated and things are not easy. More info about how reality is setting in.

Links:
As always, visit the Agonist for the latest news. It blows away most other media.

Posted by beamz at 6:10 PM | Comments (0)

March 24, 2003

Love and War

Love:
Kris was prodding me to get a map for our wedding put together so we could send it out with invitations. I was disappointed that there wasn't anything out there on the web on how to make nice looking maps. I also failed to realize that I had a decent program to do the job right under my nose. It's part of Openoffice and it's Openoffice Draw. It took a couple of hours but I put something together I'm happy with.

War:
I'm almost positive I'll be paying for some extra bandwidth I used due to my mirroring of the POW clip from Al Jazeera. In a trackback posting, there was discussion debating whether or not we should be posting this.

My main reasons were two-fold. 1) I want to help convey the gravity of war that I think so many of us including mass media overlook and 2) It's important for everyone to have a choice to view information and maybe by doing so it will have made a difference to someone. Regardless of whether we win or lose, someone somewhere is losing. Also we keep getting the wrong impression from the White House administration and I'm tired of hearing "Oh we need to have this war on (insert drugs, terrorism, whatever)" and then not too long after we've been doing it you hear "Well make no mistake folks, this is going to be long and harder than what we thought before". It's utter SHIT. Stuff happens but get a CLUE.

Important link:
Sean-Paul over at the Agonist is doing some very phenomenal posting and if you're looking for play-by-play concise reporting along with very good discussion, please stop by there.

Posted by beamz at 2:17 AM | Comments (0)

March 23, 2003

POW vid being pulled

I need to pull the POW video shortly because of bandwidth consumption. I may put it back up at a later date.

Here are some mirrors:

http://pubweb.nwu.edu/~spiritu/pow2.rm
http://www.jomiha.com/blog/archives/000072.html
http://turtopia.org/pow2.ram

Posted by beamz at 6:38 PM | Comments (0)

Mirror of Al-Jazeera interview of POW's

I've mirrored a clip locally but I'll be taking it down shortly as incurring a lot of traffic. As Sean Paul said on The Agonist, I strongly support humane treatment of POW's under the Geneva Convention but I think it's important for people to see what and how things are being reported.

Posted by beamz at 4:23 PM | Comments (6)

Reality-TV at the next level

I've been watching ITN's feed that is being syndicated by CNN, MSNBC and all of the other 24/7 news channels for the past 3 hours. They were giving a real-time view on a firefight going on in Umm Qasr, Iraq.

It has been surreal. Almost desensitizing because it does not convey the gravity of "war".

In other news, Civil Disobediance in the state of Oregon may get you 25 years in prison under a new bill with more information at Scorcher Radio.

Posted by beamz at 4:47 AM | Comments (0)

March 20, 2003

Not another war post...

I just got home. War has started in Iraq but on the homefront I have some more news.

Beginning Operation Fluffy Pillow and Operation Enduring Sleep which will be a two-pronged approach aimed at attaining mental stability in the region.

By the way, we just finished our marriage class up with the topics of money and sex. I can honestly say I've enjoyed each and every one of the classes and I've taken something away from them.

irc snippet:
beamz: morning arno
arno: heya beamz
beamz: I need to get ready for bed.
arno: heh
beamz: I just got home from work
arno: operation fluffy pillow, eh?
beamz: yah
beamz: enduring sleep
arno: hah
beamz: it's a two-pronged approach to attain mental stability in the region.
arno: well put

Posted by beamz at 4:40 AM | Comments (0)

March 19, 2003

Tori Amos Live

Tonight I went to go see Tori Amos perform. The best parts were being able to spend an evening with Kris and then enjoying Tori's music. I'm not a Tori "superfan" or anything like that but I tend to buy most of her albums.

Most memorable moment of concert: When Tori performed Imagine by John Lennon. It couldn't have been a more fitting time and the crowd reacted strongly throughout the song. "Nothing to kill or die for" seemed to draw the most cheering, whistling, screaming, and clapping in the song.

As I sat there I just observed how we felt a little out of place with so many people dressed in grunge, lesbians, and assorted other stereotypes composed of people from all different walks of life but when it came to peace in the world, everyone was the same.

In another note, my previous entry about Rachel Corrie being crushed by an Israeli bulldozer has seemed to disappear from the major news outlets. I understand war is a big deal but a U.S. citizen being killed by Israel seems very important. However the fact that it has been mostly erased from the media combined with the responsibility of an investigation is going to lie with Israel tells even more. In an Reuters article, apparently hundreds of Palestinian's had a symbolic funeral for her.

Posted by beamz at 1:46 AM | Comments (0)

March 17, 2003

take it for what you will

"Rafah: Rachel Corrie Murdered by Israeli Army

At about 5.20 pm today Rachel Corrie from Olympia in Washington
State, USA died of her injuries in A-Najar Hospital in Rafah after
being deliberately run over by an Israeli military bulldozer."

More info and pictures here showing her body laying on the ground and in the hospital.

Posted by beamz at 3:15 PM | Comments (0)

March 16, 2003

Do nothing day

My day:
Kris went out of town for her last wedding shower up near Chicago where a lot of her family lives. I stayed at home all day, did some coding, watched some TV and Good Will Hunting. This has been one of my best days off ever but I think it's because I didn't really have anything I had to get done.

Good Will Hunting came out my senior year in highschool and was the first movie I went to go see with my last ex. The plot of the movie may just seem like an unrealistic fairy tale but I've always wanted to be someone like Will Hunting. Not necessarily the broken home or unable to open up and love type of person, but intelligent through non-traditional means. A lot of it has to do with the academic emphasis when I was raised. One of my cousins who I consider a mentor especially when I was growing up was very smart like Will was, maybe that has something to do with it.

Nowadays a lot of my frustration with where I'm at is that it seems that when I have spare time, I'm not motivated to go to new depths and do new things. So when I don't have time to do these things, it seems like I want it more. Maybe it's a time management issue but it's so hard to do when the gaps to do those things are small.

Dying for a cause vs. Stupid People(TM):
Today an American Peace Activist was run down by an Israeli bulldozer. When I commented on how sick it was, someone said she deserved it. Apparently they thought she was dumb for not moving out of the way. I saw it completely different. She didn't deserve it, she was fighting for a cause, and someone murdered her. People in the area said she had been sitting there for 3 hours but that's not a fact yet. If it was, it makes it even more sickening. Any human has the responsibility to make sure they don't injure or kill other people. There is no excuse.

Posted by beamz at 8:51 PM | Comments (2)

March 15, 2003

almost forgot

The Dixie Chicks were pulled from the air after apparently "bashing" Bush. They were called unpatriotic because they disagreed with our GREAT leader. Read more here.

Posted by beamz at 5:01 AM | Comments (0)

very busy

I've been very busy lately at work. I've been working with a vendor to get many issues ironed out. It's been very engaging so far. Time-wise, I ended up working a very long week skipping my usual Thursday off and class as well as working 18hrs today.

It's been nice getting a lot done though. The downside is I haven't been able to spend ANY time with Kris whatsoever since the beginning of the week which hasn't been good.

I hope to put up some more decent content sometime soon. Until then, enjoy the good weather today and this weekend, live life to its fullest, and don't forgot to eat some Bugles.

Posted by beamz at 4:58 AM | Comments (0)

March 13, 2003

A time when things were simple...

When I was little, things so complicated but yet they seemed so simple. Seeing life was clear and it seemed that the only complicated things were learning adults, their rules, and the exceptions to the rules.

My sister Polly had a very cool conversation with her daughter today over donuts in the morning. I'm jealous she has a donut buddy that is so cool. Check it out here.

Posted by beamz at 2:03 AM | Comments (0)

March 10, 2003

down day

I stayed home today. Last week I had a rough time switching back to a daytime schedule which is what I do every week. My Wed. - Fri. schedule usually doesn't put me in bed until 4-5am. I've been doing this for over a month and this weekend I failed to push myself back to my 7am wakeup time. On top of that I was feeling like crud but I had a lot of work to do so I just called in sick.

I set my alarm for 9:45am and had 2 conference calls lined up. Then I worked on some other stuff until early this afternoon. I can't help but feel like I'm falling into the "work more hours but get less done" trap. Oh well at least I'm getting stuff done.

Some of the best warblogging I've seen which I found linked off of Technorati (which has interesting recently updated blog listings):

The Agonist

Posted by beamz at 10:32 PM | Comments (0)

March 9, 2003

I was quiet

Today we went to dinner with Kris's family for her middle sister's birthday. I really didn't say much tonight because I didn't feel like talking. It's not usually like me but I just didn't feel like it.

I need to update my galleries tomorrow when I have some time.

For now, here's part of an ad that was printed in last Sunday's paper:


Posted by beamz at 2:43 AM | Comments (1)

March 7, 2003

A daze, a rush, and a long breath

Yesterday was intense.

It started with getting home from class, eating dinner while watching Survivor with Kris. After that we got into a discussion about politics and the war. While I don't think brutal dictators are good, attacking people without them attacking first or solid concrete proof presented to independent third parties is not right. I think I started to sound like a luney left-winger after awhile by expressing my distrust in the leaders of our country. That discussion was long winded and followed with some upcoming wedding stress about being able to pull some things off.

Those discussions ended somewhat ok. I get online and just happen to check and see if the friend (Sarah) that I talked about just miraculously happened to be online and she was. We started talking and it was like one of those rushes when you finally find someone you'd been dying to hear from. I won't lie, it also brought up a lot of memories of the past and 99% of them were good. Things went south after I started to pursue a local interest and we broke things off. It was hard for both of us, she said some hurtful things but I don't assign any blame. So we spent forever catching up on how life has changed for us so much but we realized our personalities haven't much. We've grown a bit. I think it's' confusing because you want to have a friend back in your life but things are different now so you have to figure out where things will stand.

Her blog entry shares my same views on it. In the end I'm happy to say the least that we managed to find one another. No matter where life goes, people who were are/were very important have a piece of your heart and when that's gone, it's hard not to feel like something is missing. So when you reconnect, even though things may not be the same as back then, you feel like that piece is back. A lot of this right now is too difficult to explain in words. She definately did it justice in her blog entry. As I sort through my head while it's running 100mph, I'll have more to write.

I talked to Kris a little bit about it this morning. I guess I'm so greatful I am with someone who tries to understand where I am. I don't give her enough credit. I'm lucky to be able to marry her.

Posted by beamz at 6:27 PM | Comments (0)

March 6, 2003

Fit...

Talking with a very old friend of mine (adrianne), I asked her how her love life has been and she said great. The one word she used to describe it was we 'fit'. In a sense, you've struck gold when you can say you 'fit' together. Either by likeness or having opposites work to form a complimentary "oneness", finding a great companion involves compliments you nicely.

In my eyes, you could "settle" for anyone but finding someone you work well with to create icing on the cake is the magic of finding that special someone.

My mind races for miles when it's late and I'm low on sleep.

Posted by beamz at 4:31 AM | Comments (0)

March 5, 2003

Oops

HA HA HA... oops, not so funny:
Ever hear a saying that goes something like "Be careful about laughing at others misfortunes because they could become your own" ?

Today on my way to work I was informed that the Nimda virus (2 year old virus) infected machines on our network and had taken out some production boxes. When nimda first hit, it never even grazed us but took out our larger sister paper, the Arizona Republic. We laughed at their situation and the panic they were in and it's too iron that 2 years later we got hit ourselves.

That'll teach us.

Take that shirt off!!!!:
Someone was arrested at a mall for refusing to take a "Give Peace a Chance" tshirt. Reuter wire via abcnews.com here. I'm surprised yet not surprised. You think about stupid things that could happen anyday but don't think they'll ever happen yet this did.

Communication and conflict resolution:
We spent time discussing this in our Marriage preparation class. After listening to some discussion, it's seems a lot of marriages end in divorce because people simply give up. I have even more faith in our relationship because I just think about the atttitude I have towards smoking and I choose not to go out and buy a pack because it just isn't worth ruining my health again or giving up on a long term goal. To the same effect, how could I give up the best gift in life I've ever been given?

Posted by beamz at 11:36 PM | Comments (0)

tired

I'm tired. I'm busy. I just finished with another chapter of accounting work with 1 more to go by Thursday. I'm here, I'm living, and I've been given an extension on my lease on life.

While answering some questions in this Marriage workshop book, the subject of friends came up again. This further emphasized how transient a lot of my friendships are. I do seem to keep the ones that really count though. It makes them that much more important.

Beth Orton is pleasing to the ears but it's time to crash now.

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March 2, 2003

Inciting War

I commented in someones blog today about semantics and religious views. I stirred a bit of a reaction by commenting that some things are better left alone. I mean things such as words on a dollar bill, the pledge of alegiance etc. The reason I state this is because I believe their are bigger battles to fight. Things such as globalism, consumerism, assult on personal freedom by Ashcroft and the current administration etc.

I also believe that the people who had the power at the time founded this country based on morals valued in their religious views. If someone else would like to lead this country or amass a big enough group to get things changed (read: majority of America), I'm sure they could get "In God We Trust" changed to "In Spongebob We Trust."

Apparently my comments were interpretted as "Leave everything the way it is." which I apologize for since that wasn't my intention at all.

Thread here.

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