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March 2, 2005

So long Chris Portman

Update: Martin Ross spoke with Chris' mom and said that his death was an accident. Someone else has said according to the family that it was due to carbon monoxide poisoning. Regardless he's no longer with us.

A friend of mine apparently decided to take his own life. Chris has unnecessarily reminded us of our own mortality. I had known Chris for what seems to be a very long time, at least 7-8 years. He didn't talk a lot but I remember asking for some technical help and talking to him randomly on irc.

Every second that passes this seems more and more unreal. I've talked to a certain group of friends pretty much daily over the last 5 years and before that it was monthly. Chris was part of the group that has become a permanent part of my life. He'll be missed that's for sure.

21:50 cjp was last seen on IRC 8 days, 3 hours, 15 minutes and 22 seconds ago, saying: wow that sucks [Tue Feb 22 18:34:55 2005]


Posted by beamz at March 2, 2005 9:47 PM


RIP Porter. Thanks for the memories.

Posted by: doraemon at March 6, 2005 4:28 PM

I also knew Chris for many years.

Smart, friendly. Damn shame for him to leave us with so many years ahead of him.

-Rob Fleischman (from New Hampshire)

Posted by: Rob Fleischman at March 7, 2005 11:57 AM

I remember Chris as being an exciting young man. He was good at his work and lucky at poker. We enjoyed having Chris sit in on the weekly poker games; especially when he was just learning. His Canadian Straight will always be in my mind when playing with friends. He was a lot of fun to have at the table. He was so full of energy it was contagious.

There is no answer that will help me understand why? I can only say that in my mind, though he took his own life, he had no more control over it than someone who died from a sickness. Chris was ill.

This is a tragedy that we could not foresee. And my heart has been very heavy over this last week. It is still difficult for me to comprehend. I truly liked Chris. His family has been and will be in my prayers.

Posted by: Bradley Martin at March 7, 2005 2:19 PM

Chris and I were high school friends for many years. He was a truly brilliant guy.

Posted by: Martin Ross at March 7, 2005 3:02 PM

another blog for Chris...http://bradleymartin.blogspot.com/

Posted by: Bradley Martin at March 7, 2005 4:49 PM

What to say? I was (and still am) deeply saddened and shocked to learn of the passing of Chris. We used to pass each other in the hall every day and say hello. We used to see each other outside, laughing and/or bitching about whatever was going on that day, that moment.

Chris was an amazing and talented guy - one who always had a smile on his face...even when he was pissed off about something. Chris and I weren't close friends, he was a colleague - nevertheless, i still considered (still consider) him a friend.

May God bless you and keep you Chris. You have left an imprint on the lives of everyone you touched. Be at peace.

Posted by: Eric Hutchinson at March 7, 2005 5:56 PM

Chris and I were friends from Kindergarden to grade 9, when he left Toronto for California. I am sad and shocked to hear of his passing. He was truly brilliant and we have all lost someone special. I wish I had kept in touch with Chris. I send my condolences to the Portman family. I am sorry I cannot attend the service on Thursday, March 10, 7:00
p.m. at the Boulevard Club, 1491 Lakeshore Road West.

Posted by: Erik Kalins at March 7, 2005 11:49 PM

It's nice to hear from people who knew Chris personally. Thanks for taking the time to comment.

Posted by: Ed at March 8, 2005 12:00 AM

I used to work with Chris and will miss him dearly. He was a constant source of inspiration as well as humor. I will always remember him as a friend. What a loss...

Posted by: Henry at March 8, 2005 12:57 AM

In over 6 years working here, i've never had the honor to know him in person, beyond a few exchanges on IRC. Yet, most of us knew *of* him, of his skills, of his achievements, his works of systems engineering art. He was widely admired and respected. I wish I had gotten to know him.

Posted by: chris holland at March 8, 2005 2:44 AM

At Chris' high school, Upper Canada College in Toronto, he was well known as being incredibly bright and destinated for greatness. He had many friends who will miss him. Chris and his mom hosted a school reunion in Santa Monica a couple of years ago, a wonderful gesture. Sad to lose someone so young.

Posted by: Paul Winnell at March 8, 2005 9:47 AM

I remember Chris typing an 11 digit password on a keyboard on his knees under a table in grade 7. I remember being shocked that this was possible, let alone by a 12yr old.

With Chris at school my batch file writing and c dabbling felt simple and petty compared to what he was doing. After he left I wondered what had happened to him and just figured he'd show up somewhere, maybe at a school reunion.

I'm sad to have heard of his passing.

Posted by: Donovan Pollitt at March 8, 2005 10:36 AM

There are so many things to say about Chris, yet it's hard to say any of them. I have a hard time speaking of Chris in a past tense, because I can't fathom the reality that says he is no longer with us.

I started working with him 'aboot' four years ago; and took every opportunity I could to leach some of his enormous wealth of knowledge. He showed me not only new technical things, but showed me new ways to look at the ones I already knew. He would never hesitate to share his knowledge with those who use it well. His teachings helped me to advance further and quicker than I ever though possible.

Any time at work that we were dealing with a production problem, across any set of systems, Portman could walk in; knowing little to nothing about the specific systems and start moving towards a resolution. He did this time after time, always knowing where to look, and what to uncover.

What's most amazing about Chris, he knew what an intelligent and talented person he was; but he was still down to Earth. If you asked him a question, not only would he not shy away from an answer but he'd take you into his office and give you the complete lesson that would allow you to find your own answer. He's carried this tradition to his passing; I've learned a lesson, and am working towards my own answers.

Posted by: Ephur at March 8, 2005 11:07 AM

I can't seem to find the words to express how I feel. Chris was always a good friend, and always there for some fun banter. Chris helped me with a filesytem limitation I had with Solaris, his suggestions where pivitol in my development, without them the project would have taken another year. Thanks to him, I went into production in 2 months instead of 12.

He also convinced me moving to Canada wouldn't be a good idea and just tough it out here.

Posted by: Tag at March 8, 2005 11:16 AM

Some of my random memories of Chris
1. Having dinner at Il Fornello at Yonge and St. Clair with his mom. Chris and I sitting opposite each other launching ice cubes off our spoons at each other. And occasionally nailing other patrons. Pretending it wasn't us.

2. Getting drunk for the first time at Chris' dad's house.

3. Playing network Bolo in his mom's Summerhill townhouse.

4. Chris in pysed class. Very entertaining.

5. Using Chris' powermac laptop do generate sound effects for a grade 7 English play. Freaking out as powermac failed.

6. Chris' total domination of UCC's IT infrastructure and PBX. Chris using PBX to give himself wakeup calls.

7. Listening to Chris play Fur Elise on my parent's patio straight from memory.

8. Meeting Chris for first time at UCC Computer camp.

9. Chris and I hurling mouse pads at each other in lower school mac computer lab.

10. Listening to Chris recite the words to any pop song from memory after having heard it once.

11. Talking on phone with Chris about death.

12. Watching Chris and Leslie bicker.

13. Sneaking into UCC on weekend with Chris. Getting busted by security guard while Chris escaped.

14. Realizing for the first time that Chris was truly brilliant and I wasn't.

15. Chris yelping.

16. Chris freaking students out in computer lab via VNC-esque remote control antics.

There are few things in life that I regret, but missing the last 5 years of Chris' life because of our mutual stubborness is now one of them.

Posted by: Martin Ross at March 8, 2005 2:45 PM

I remember Chris, and I remember my first impression of him. My first impression was that he was a bit hyperactive and that he was never doing things that he ought to have been doing. Of course, the only time I ever really saw him was in the computer lab, so my first impression was right.

It was only when I figured out why he was those things that it made sense. I remember him making .bat files to play practical jokes on people. I remember him teaching us things that the teachers didn't really want us to know about DOS. I remember him jolting haphazardly around the room on desk chairs and hiding under desks to avoid whichever system administrator he'd annoyed. I remember most of all that he made Mr. Abdelnour very nervous, which was appropriate because Chris knew more about the system than Mr. Abdelnour.

At some point during grade nine I figured out that Chris was just bored. It was not as though he'd learned all of his computer knowledge through years of hard study because it seemed there hadn't been enough years for him to learn all of that. It seemed to me more like he'd been born with it, and in truth, I couldn't have pictured him in any other setting.

He was funny, and if you asked him for help, you would get more information than you knew what to do with. Once you processed it, you'd be able to understand why your question had been a silly one in the first place. The look he'd give you suggested that he thought everyone should have already known this stuff.

He was an interesting guy, and it's a shame we never got to see what he could do with all that knowledge.

Posted by: Jordan St.John at March 8, 2005 2:52 PM

Chris an I were not close, but he was the kind of guy that anyone would like. He lived right down the street from me. The last real conversation we had was at the top of my driveway.

Its funny what pulling into your drive can end up meaning. I think of Chris every time I return home, and thoughts of him begin the next day as I leave my apartment.

Chris, you will be dearly missed by more people than you could have imagined. You've touched my life in a special way, and I will remember you forever.

Posted by: klong at March 9, 2005 2:39 AM

Having known and worked with Chris for the better part of the last six years, it's hard to come to terms with the fact that he is gone. Chris was one of the two or three brightest people I've ever met. There was no limit to what he could do with a computer, whether it was troubleshooting a problem, analyzing code, or sticking a screwdriver into the fan of a $250,000 piece of eval gear "just to see what it would do."

Chris came to EarthLink as a scrawny, pimple-faced kid. Even though he was only 18 or 19, it was already apparent that he was smarter than everyone else. Chris was always doing things he knew he shouldn't be, and getting away with it. How could you argue with the results he got? He was the king of redesgining and entire service over a weekend while the managers were distracted at an offsite. If you had a piece of hardware that wasn't plugged in and he found it, it was serving data to customers the next morning. I never saw him run into a problem he couldn't diagnose and solve while most of us were still just trying to understand what the problem was.

Chris' fly-by-the-seat-of-my-pants/prankster nature made him everyone's little brother. We were always trying to either keep him out of trouble or keep up with his ability to wreak havoc around the office. One of his favorite pastimes was finding people who had left their systems unlocked and unguarded so he could type ridiculous things in their IRC window (namely "I am a love machine"). Chris just made work fun. The office hasn't been the same since he left, and the world won't be the same without him.

For those of you who have known him since childhood, you'd be proud to know that while Chris received a constant stream of crap at the office for being Canadian, he always proudly and fiercely defended the blanc et rouge with all the 'moose-power' he could muster.

Over the years, Chris and I had our fair share of disagreements, probably due to the fact that we both had some growing up to do. Over the course of the last year or so, after a specific conversation that I remember vividly, we had really come to respect and understand one another, and words can't express how sorry I am that I won't have the chance to enjoy having him around to laugh with and learn from.

I can't remember what the last thing was that I said to Chris, but if I had known that it was the last chance that I was going to have to talk to him, I know I would have said something different.

Chris, I hope you have found the peace that you couldn't find here with us. You will always live in my memory, and the memories of those who knew and loved you. We all miss you more than we can express.

Posted by: Aaron at March 9, 2005 2:56 AM

Various blogs...









Also a few extra pics

Posted by: Martin Ross at March 9, 2005 7:41 PM

Martin, you rock. Thanks.

Posted by: Ed at March 9, 2005 8:08 PM

I am Chris' sister... thank you all for your thoughts, they mean so very much to myself and family. I hope that everyone who can come to the Service does... and please introduce yourself to me!!!

Posted by: Chris' sister at March 9, 2005 8:32 PM


If there is anything any of us can do for you and your family let us know.

Posted by: Ed at March 9, 2005 9:47 PM

Chris was a good friend of mine. I knew him since the days of #teen and JPL in '95. He would call me and we would listen to Howard Stern because I couldn't get him on the radio in Hawaii. He was the funniest guy I knew and always made time to hang out with me, listen to my problems and be there when I needed a friend. He attended my wedding in 2000 - a surprise because he showed up so late thanks to plane delays. My night was complete once he was there, I was so happy he had made the trip to Colorado. His mom is the sweetest person I know, she barely knew me and treated me like a member of the family just like his sister. When I moved to Florida we had sort of lost touch - busy with our own lives I guess. I had just gotten an updated email address for him and was going to email him... I never did, and now it's too late..

Chris, I hope you knew how special you were and how much you meant to a lot of people, including me. I will miss you.


Posted by: Kelli Robbins at March 9, 2005 9:56 PM

Please someone let me know what happened.. I am in Kenya and I just found out. I recognize so many names from this blog - I knew Chris since he was the 15-year-old sysadmin for the biggest ISP in Canada at the time - iSTAR.

He instantly became my little brother, especially after we all moved to Ottawa - we were truly family. He recovered from an accident at my parent's place in Halifax, Nova Scotia, and there fell in love with the sea.. he came every August for a few years for my birthday bash, and I managed to make it to California in January a few times for his. He and Katherine came to my wedding in Nova Scotia in 2002.. and he delighted in treating her to all the lobster he could. My dad even let him ride the lawn tractor (god he loved that!).

He gave us a portable DVD player so we could transfer the wedding tapes to DVD and bring it to my husband's village in rural Africa - no power there, so he made sure it would last long enough that we could show them everything.

Thoughtful? Yes.. he was also a true prodigy, and weird & wonderful & always amusing, even when trying his best to be annoying... and a great speaker-dancer.

I haven't seen him since that time in Nova Scotia - I haven't even been back home since then myself. He called a couple of times, and I trusted in the fact that he sounded so happy.. he always brushed aside any questions about his health.

I was at a meeting today and they mentioned Netapps.. I cried.. Chris was TOO excited when they first came out.

I always thought he's keep popping up when I least expected it.. I certainly didn't expect this.

I love you Chris.


Posted by: Johanna at March 10, 2005 9:30 AM

I too am a part of Johanna's extended family and also felt like Chris was part of our weird and wonderful family. I'll never forget him geeking out over the puter in Ottawa (and everywhere else for that matter), the mIRC messages we used to shoot back at one another, the crazy 'iron butterfly' drink concoction he came up with, the suprise phone calls (Johanna yelling "IT'S PORTMAN!" I answered and got to yell that a time or two!) and his dire need to have his hair cut after the Ottawa incident, god he couldn't wait *haha* Strange how the little guy, I still can't help but think of him that way, used to just pop into your head every now and then. I will be going to the Celebration tonight in Toronto and hope to see some familiar faces. *HUGGS* Will miss you Portman....

Posted by: sonJa at March 10, 2005 10:41 AM

I too knew Chris when I worked with him at iSTAR. In fact Eriks, my husband, recruited him site unseen into iSTAR because of the cleverness of his work. Imagine our surprise when a 16 year old showed up. But his work spoke for itself and he got hte job anyway. We all liked Chris.

He could hack into a box faster than the operator could get the password and login.

I am very sorry to hear that his ride is over when it should be just beginning.

Posted by: Jacqui at March 10, 2005 11:44 AM

I knew Chris from iSTAR - he was amazing to work with and always had some creative solutions for the weird problems we ran into.

I'll tell some Portman tales a little later... The connectivity issue I'm working on suddenly seems much less important. :(

Posted by: Moose at March 10, 2005 12:22 PM

John Henders, Chris Portman and I spent quite a bit of time working on different projects and taking care of our customers.

Some things that come to mind: He flew from Ottawa to Toronto with a mail server replacement under his arm. He maintained our "rogue" IRC server. Hooking up the news server to a part of the network and burning out the link light. "Finding" two SUN Enterprice 1000 servers with four motherboards and two Disk Arrays, and taking it apart under his desk (so nobody would find out about them until it was too late and they were ready to be put into service).

I remember visiting him in the hospital after his run-in with the skateboard fellow. He acted his old self, but seemed affected by it somehow. After the takeover by PSINet, our paths didn't cross again. Pity.

Chris was one of the smartest people I've run into during my career.


Posted by: GJ at March 10, 2005 2:16 PM

This was certainly not the news I was expecting when I opened up Johanna's email. It seems too unbelievable and sad to be true...

I was lucky to have met cjp in Ottawa when I went to live there for a few months with Johanna (my sister). He instantly became the little brother I thought I had left behind in Halifax! I remember the night he and Seb were attacked and how awful it was and the feelings of helplessness and not knowing what to do.

He came to visit us in Halifax a few times and was a part of our family (we have a tendency to unofficially adopt people!) and he loved the fact that we didn't treat him any differently than we did each other. And yes, driving Dad's lawn tractor was a highlight!

I will also never forget the cottage party where all he wanted to do was sing "Barrett's Privateers"...over and over and over!!

Tonight I will be raising a glass in Portman's memory and hope you all do the same.


Posted by: Vanessa at March 10, 2005 2:33 PM

Oh Portman! So young, so talented, so unfair...

You brought many smiles to my life in the brief time I knew you. I will never forget you.

Love you...will miss you.


Posted by: pocketang at March 10, 2005 3:21 PM

And since we are telling stories my first meeting with Chris was one of those smiles on my face.

He was very young, still working at Istar with Jo. He was in Halifax for a visit. He had to go to the hospital and made sure he lied about his birthdate so he could use his hospital bracelet later on that evening to go barhopping with us old folks :)

It was a hoot and a half watching him trying to get into bars with a hospital bracelet for ID. Naturally we had scads of fun. That evening left quite an impression on me and there were many more memorable and crazy evenings that followed over the years...


Posted by: pocketang at March 10, 2005 6:20 PM

It's funny how small and close-knit the community was back in the "early days" of ISPs and IRC. As the years go by, we all drift in and out of each others' lives, and news comes less and less frequently, and is often not what you want to hear.

It is startling to hear another distant voice grow silent, but the silent voices are the ones we remember most. "Only the good die young."

Go in peace, Chris.

Posted by: Taz at March 13, 2005 8:22 PM

WOW, this news is very unexpected. Chris was one of the smartest, coolest kids I have ever met. While I haven't seen him since I left LA, he has been in my thoughts frequently. There is so much about him that I remember, and they are all good. From the halls of EarthLink, to the suites at DefCon, he was always a fun person to be around. He has contributed so much to our communities, and our lives. Altarboy, you will be sorely missed, and I hope you are in a much happier place. -bill

Posted by: Bill Naja at March 14, 2005 12:10 AM

Chris was like a prodigy nephew to me. Part of my job at EarthLink (before leaving there 2.5 years ago) was to squeeze deals out of vendors.

And Chris was one of the best go-to tech guys I could ever want to utilize. He knew almost everything and had a ton of fun pointing out flaws in the OS or the hardware - and I could then leverage SUN or NetApp or whomever for a few more percentage points after Chris knocked them back on their heels.

But more than that, he was fundamentally a great person - whether it was playing poker (he usually lost) or just talking office gossip, he helped make coming to work worthwhile.

I still remember conference calls with 10 or 15 people on them - and he'd have 3 or 4 side IRC or chat windows open - and be feeding back channel answers or questions to various participants as quickly as people could read them out.

I just found out today that he is gone. Such a loss.

Posted by: Steve Dougherty at March 14, 2005 3:42 AM

*haha* I'd forgotten about the hospital braclet and Portman in Halifax that summer, thanks for reminding me Ang :)

I introduced myself to Portman's mom and sister at the service in TO last week, it was nice to hear lots of good Portman stories. Made me smile when someone mentioned how fast the little bugger's fingers would fly when typing, I'm good but I'm surely no Portman. Renee, MacLeod and I arrived at the same time and and after went to MacLeod's to call Johanna and chat.

I don't know what happened or why it happened but RIP CJP.

Posted by: sonJa at March 14, 2005 12:42 PM

This is very sad news indeed. I worked with Chris at iSTAR. He was definately one of the brightest people I've ever met and had the pleasure of working with... I learned a **lot** from him. The one thing that really sticks out in my mind is that he preferred to use the regular ole console with a screen session. I guess X just slowed him down too much with all that keyboard driver latency. Hahaha.Come to think of it, it was cjp who inspired me to quit the 2-finger stuff and learn to type.

A great, brilliant guy who will be sorely missed!

Posted by: Jeff Libby at March 15, 2005 9:32 AM

Chris's mom, me and Lesley thank you all for your condolences and your memories of Chris.

Posted by: david portman at March 15, 2005 6:48 PM

Unfortunately,I did not know Chris.From all of you I learned of his goodnes and extreme brightnes as a friend and computer expert.But I do know his Mom and Leslie and my hart is aching for him for them and all of you his friends who loved and admired him. All I could hope for him now is a peaceful night.

Posted by: Anna at March 19, 2005 2:52 AM

I remember meeting chris on irc around 1995 -- I was doing a Ph.D. in computer science in Illinois, running a channel. I was surprised at his technical expertise and even at 15 he had a technical edge over me. I remember he went into my directory where I had some bots running and was disgusted by the disorganization there and cleaned it up for me.

I do remember getting called on the floor because some mysterious computer attacks on another system were found to originate from some of the Beckman Institute computers ...

There was a lot of drama ... my biggest regret is that for a time we were in Ottawa together at the same time around 97 ... we chatted on irc but never got together.

He was truly an extremely loyal friend ... we had many chats, backed each other up ... I remember chatting on the space shuttle party line with him until that was discovered by JPL.

I remember him talking about his sister Lesley, in the kind of patronizing annoying way that brothers have who really care about their sister.

I was on irc for about 30 days .. I tried to message him but he was always idle ... I hadn't spoken to him in several years. And tonight I thought maybe I could google him ...i'm so shocked at what happened.

Posted by: Larry Watanabe at March 24, 2005 2:06 AM

Today is 4 weeks since Chris passed away.Wendy, Lesley and me miss him so much, we thank all of you for being his friend.Bye now.

Posted by: david portman at March 25, 2005 1:27 AM

Chris meant a lot to us all. He was a mentor and friend to many. I am reminded of Chris each day.
I thought a lot of Chris, looked up to him you could say. I'll miss his sarcastic remarks, his technical
knowledge, but most of all his smile. I guess the picture at the top of the page says it all.

Posted by: John Dewey at March 27, 2005 7:48 PM

Some random conversations with _chris_ in 95/96 ..

[_Chris_:portman@96.117.130] you alive?
yes very alive :)
[_Chris_:cjp@netcom.com] rjp is set up to stay on colorado, ONLY
[_Chris_:cjp@netcom.com] it's an unreliable server so i'd like to leave it ther
. [_Chris_:cjp@netcom.com] Okay, i'm serious. When the hell do you sleep???!?
in the mornings :)
[_Chris_:cjp@netcom.com] YOu're pyscho :)
better qestion is when do YOU sleep :)
[_Chris_:cjp@netcom.com] I take nights off :)

Chris hijacking the NASA shuttle line for a nightly teen conference call :)

*_Chris_* conscious?:)
*_Chris_* May I run another bot from your account for UnderNet? O-:)

-> *_chris_* no i've got too many bots running :)
*_Chris_* It's for #teenchat :)
*_Chris_* I'm converting them over to eggdrops :)
-> *_chris_* do you know a girl named jiza there? :)
*_Chris_* JiSa, not Jiza :)
*_Chris_* You frequent #teensex? :)
*_Chris_* That's her hideout :)
-> *_chris_* nah i don't..she is the younger isster of a friend fo mine :)
*_Chris_* Cool :)
*_Chris_* The answer is still no tho? :)
-> *_chris_* that's right :)
*_Chris_* =..(
*_Chris_* If you have some time this week for the phone conf thing I've got some EXTREMELY INTERESTING =FACTS= to give you :)))
-> *_chris_* ah...yes i do have some time :)
-> *_chris_* are yuou going to be on all night tonight?
*_Chris_* Now? :)
*_Chris_* The #teeners will want it for the nightly phone conf soon :)


I remember one night when I was depressed and chris spent all night talking to me .. I just wish I could have done the same for him.

Posted by: Larry Watanabe at March 28, 2005 3:02 AM

Christopher, as I knew him, was a wonderful young boy who was the ring bearer at my wedding, March 25, 1988 in Toronto. At the tender age of 8, he took his position of Ring Bearer very seriously. My friend, CJP's mum Wendy, always boasted with great pride about her two children, Christopher and younger sister Lesley. Today, CJP lies somewhere at peace with his Winnie The Pooh. I know he is deep in the heart, soul and spirit of his family members. He was a special gift. After reading about him as a young man through the above reflective words of his friends/peers/working mates ~ I wish I had gotten to know him better.
Life is not measured by the numbers of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away. I feel CJP is in a wonderful, calm, quiet place and his serenity will surely guide his family members to find peace in the future. Sadness prevails now.

Posted by: Catherine Wilson at March 29, 2005 6:50 PM

Indeed life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the number of breaths that take our breath away. As Chris' sister I sit here and read over what you all have written and I appreciate it... as does my family.
I feel, however that he didn't have enough breaths... and for this, I am truly sorry.

Posted by: Chris' sister at April 2, 2005 8:31 PM

Thank you all friends of Chris for your replies and pictures that you have posted.Wendy, Lesley and me miss him so much, and we trust that he has found peace, he was such a wonderful son.

Posted by: david portman at April 3, 2005 1:37 AM

Chris was a very caring person ... I remember one time he saved a girl from suicide and forwarded me the letter of thanks from her Dad. Now, with all the drama of those days I don't know what was real and what wasn't ... but to my mind it doesn't matter ... the important thing was that he cared a great deal about others.
Date: Tue, 27 Feb 1996 18:55:15 +0000
From: xxxxx
To: cjp@netcom.com
Subject: thanks

Thanks to your call, the sheriff came to our door before the time
xxxxx had set to commit suicide. She is now safe and back in
the hospital. My words cannot possibly describe how grateful I am to
you for caring enough to help her. I am writing to let you know that
she is safe. She would be very upset if she knew I contacted
you, so I ask that you not let her know that I made the contact. I
just felt very strongly that I had to tell you how much I appreciate
you. xxxxx is the light of my life.

She has clinical depression. It is treatable. She will recover, with
help. We intend to try again to reduce the time she spends on the
internet when she comes home, because she needs to spend more time
with friends here. She tends to use the net as an escape. She
became very upset when we would not allow her to go to California for
xxxxxx. That was when we put her into the hospital the first
time. The last time was when you called the sheriff. Thanks again.
Maybe when she gets better, you can come to Florida. I will be too
concerned about her safety for a long time to let her go to

xxxx's Dad
He was a wonderful and caring person .... wore his heart on his sleeve and felt things deeply ... brilliant, funny, helpful. I'll miss you Chris.

Posted by: Larry Watanabe at April 3, 2005 11:32 PM

Chris was one of the well remembered people in our iSTAR family. The brilliant teenager who knew the workings of network servers better than nearly anyone else I've ever met. My regards to his family.

Posted by: Stephen Gallagher at April 13, 2005 4:12 PM

Chris was my roomate for a year or two back in Canada.... I'm so very stunned to hear of his death.. he was a great guy...

My deepest condoloces go out to his family...

Posted by: San Mehat at April 20, 2005 12:39 AM

WOW, what else can I say, I've been out of touch with Chirs since he contacted me to use me as a refrence when he went to earthlink along time go, while we we're not in contact really since then, he came up in conversation more then once over the years for sure. Chris what truely one of the smartest people I've ever had the please to know to or work with. Not sure what else to say other then you'll be missed chris, I'll raise a glass to you this evening.


Posted by: jim deleskie at April 29, 2005 11:51 AM

Wow, I don't know what to say.
I knew Chris back when he was in Ottawa.
My deepest condolences to the rest of the family.

Posted by: Chris Houle at May 2, 2005 4:10 PM

I havent seen Chris for 2 years now, but he'd often contact me when he was coming to Tdot and I'd pick him up and we'd hang out and catch up.

I'm sad that this wont happen again. Chris was an awesome guy, I held him with the highest respect.

You will always be remembered.

Posted by: Nick Dupuis at May 2, 2005 4:24 PM

I haven't seen <chris> in forever, since he used to kick everyone off of #ottawa and we made #ottawa+. He was a nutball back then. Sorry to see you signoff man.

Posted by: Idcmp at May 3, 2005 5:11 PM

A girl he hurt badly,

I'm tempted to remove your comment. Actually on second thought I think I will. It's unfortunate you feel that way but this isn't the place nor the time to make those kinds of statements. This kind of explanation shouldn't be necessary but apparently it is.

Posted by: Ed at May 4, 2005 9:00 AM

Hey Ed, the dividers for the comments cause a bit of confusion. A number of people believed I had posted an empty comment (as if to say "no comment on his death") as it was the last comment for a while.

Posted by: Idcmp at May 4, 2005 1:07 PM

Wow. I just found out about Chris myself. We used to work together at ACC in Toronto. It's been 6 years but we all still share some of Chris's more infamous antics back in the ACC days. I'll never look at zip ties and "B&B" without thinking of Chris. RIP.

Posted by: Paul Monaghan at May 4, 2005 2:00 PM

I recently found out about this sad news from an old friend. Though I only knew Chris during his time in Ottawa, he was certainly someone that left impressions on people. I dug up an old diary passage from March of 97. I was upset one evening from something that happened (typical teenage drama) and needed an ear. By the time I got home, I was pretty upset so I talked to Chris Portman on IRC. Hes such an awesome guy. I wish he didnt have to move to Toronto. People like Chris come around once in a million years.

Rest in peace.

Posted by: Kristina Fox at May 5, 2005 10:37 PM

As the summer slowly creeps into Canada my mind is wandering ahead to the cottage party at Johanna's family's cottage this summer and how that was the most likely place I'd see Portman. Was the last place I saw him when we all gathered in NS for Joey's wedding. Still thinking of him alot, miss the brat.

Posted by: sonJa at May 9, 2005 12:07 PM

Wendy,Lesley and me thank all of you for your rememberances of Chris,such a shame that he has left us.We love you Chris.

Posted by: David portman at May 11, 2005 10:50 PM

reading winamp's credits brought me on here... Please forgive me for asking, but who exactly was Chris Portman?... he seemed to have touched so many people's life in a magical way...

Posted by: regi at May 16, 2005 6:17 PM

I was at a St Patricks day party talking to a kid named Adam who was about Chris's age just making small talk, he told me that his dad tought him DOS at age five, I mentioned he reminded me of my stepbrother who we just lost and "he" used to work at earthlink, Adam looked at at me in shock and asked, was your stepbrother Chris Portman? I'll never forget the chill that went down my back, since I never had said Chris's name during the conversation. Chris you will be missed and I'm sorry we didn't spend more time together. Love Doug and Oliver

Posted by: Doug Lewis at May 17, 2005 12:08 PM

I met Chris at one of the UCC camps around 1992. I remember being impressed and inspired by his skills and mischievousness. For some reason I googled him today, and I'm shocked and saddened to have read this.

Posted by: Adrian Heilbut at June 5, 2005 9:54 PM

Following a conversation with my mom over diner this evening I decided to google Portman's name. To say I knew him would be an overstatement, a big overstatement.

Chris and I were roommaes for a few months at UCC, I was in Wedds house and he stayed in my room for the lst few months of... maybe it was 94? 95? He was in grade 9 and I was in grade 8, and his folks had gone travelling and decided to put him in boarding while they were gone.

I liked Chris a lot, despite his geekiness or maybe because of it. He had this way of not being pompus or full of shit like most everyone else I had known at UCC, he also had this veign of low key hostillity or angst, I think that could be another reason we connected.

I don't know if he continued the habit after he left but I might have been the one to get him smoking... fuck... I hate that I'm contributing to his obituary... I hate that he's dead, and I hate that I had to find out from a fucking google search.

The year after he was my temporary room mate I asked somebody where he was because I hadn't seen him around school, the guy I talked to told me he had left to work for NASA programming satelite photos onto the internet. That's where I left him so many years ago... once in a while I would tell friends about that kid and his uber-tech job with the man I really hoped that the first thing I would find of him would be something living.

Goodbye Chris, goodbye.

Posted by: Chris Rooney at June 7, 2005 4:33 AM

Reading through the dedication in a winamp window I happened upon the dedication to Chris. I knew him only briefly from the time I worked at iSTAR in IT support when I was working as a coop student straight out of high school(18). Seeing someone even younger than me there doing so many amazing things inspired me.

It's sad to hear of his passing and my condolences go out to his friends and family.

Posted by: alex chan at June 24, 2005 7:35 PM

Chris was a wonderful person. I know that it has been almost a half a year since his passing, but I still think of him and his great friendship. May God bless him, his family and friends. For ever will I remember Chris. RIP.


Posted by: Greg Brown at June 25, 2005 10:09 PM

You're not alone Greg, I keep checking back here too and think about him often.

Posted by: sonJa at July 5, 2005 4:37 PM

I just heard about this today, I worked with Chris back at Inforamp.

He was about half my age and knew more about unix and networking then than I do today. He was a born natural and went out of his way to help me out when I plugged in my first servers.

I'm having a hard time parsing this news, I thought he had a golden future in front of him.

My condolences to his friends and family.

Posted by: Mark Jeftovic at August 5, 2005 8:26 PM

We had a great weekend at the Voerman's cottage this past weekend in Toney River, NS and lots of Portman memories were shared, the pre-party just wasn't quite the same w/out Chris. He really loved visiting NS and especially the cottage on the ocean where we'd spent a couple of great days and nights several times. David, it was great meeting you and Carol and my condolences once again to you and all of Chris' family. It still hurts to think that he's gone.

Posted by: sonJa at August 10, 2005 10:44 AM

Uncle David, Wendy and Leslie,

What can I say... I have accessed this site for the first time and would also like to again express my feelings of sadness for such a terrible loss. It is nice to see that Chris had so many friends who will remember him. Once again my condolences and lots of strength.

Posted by: stella at August 10, 2005 10:01 PM

Sadly I only now found out about cjp's passing on (from Winamp credits, no less).

I started at iStar in August 97, essentially hired by GJ, cjp got let go at the end of february 98 when PSInet took over.

Over those 6 months, I didn't see him all that much, and plenty a time we didn't see eye to eye. He had a habit of going over to unlogged out sessions, and typing random things on other folks' terminals, and one day I didn't log out... Having excessive sense of self-worth, I weren't impressed when I came back.

Day later, I remember finding out IP of his win95 workstation, and winnuking it repeatedly. Eventually he gave up on his desktop in disgust, and went to a win95 PC in a common area, that didn't have secure CRT installed, and telnetted home. As iSTAR office lan wasn't switched, I sniffed his password.

I guess that's what started the antipaty back then.

Then there was efnet, #ottawa, #unix, Dianora, etc. Eventually he moved to Toronto and then to the states, and I stopped IRCing.

cjp kind of faded away from my world.

But time passes, and we change, so now I feel sad about his passing.

Chris, rest in peace.

Posted by: stany at September 16, 2005 6:48 PM

Its been about seven months since my brother passed away. There are days where I still can't comprehend what has happened. Sometimes I come to this site to re-read the stories of my brother... he is so hard to explain to people who don't know him.
I want to thank everyone for taking the time to write about him. I find comfort in reading stories about him, what ever they may be.
Thank you,
Chris' sister

Posted by: Chris' sister at September 26, 2005 8:32 PM

I was just looking at the photo of Chris at the top of this page, and wonering whether anyone had more photos of him? I would really love to have them.
thanks again,
Chris' sister

Posted by: Chris' sister at September 26, 2005 8:40 PM


There are a few more pictures here: http://www.flop.org/cjp/

The site belongs to Heather (argv) who I know on irc and who hung out with Chris and I on #solaris. Thanks for keeping the thread going... Hang in there.

- Ed

Posted by: Ed at September 26, 2005 10:22 PM

As well as Lesley, I cannot understand why this happened,but I thank all of you for your comments, it means a lot to us.I trust that Chris is now content and at peace.

Posted by: david portman at October 7, 2005 11:53 PM

Wow, this is a major surprise. I googled Chris because I just came across an old picture of us at Defcon and I wanted to know what he was up to these days. I don't even know what to say, he was an *extremely* smart and talented person, Chris will definitely be missed by a lot of people.

Posted by: Joe Luna at October 14, 2005 3:47 AM

Hi, I am "Heather, my friend from Google" and Chris was "Chris, my friend from Earthlink". I met Chris on IRC when he was < 18 in #hack. He was living with San in Toronto working for iStar. It's taken me a very long time to come to terms with this. Some of my greatest memories are below.

1. The first time I 'saw' Chris and talked to him on the phone was when he borrowed San's Java based streaming web-cam. It was choppy but I could see him. I remember being so nervous I couldn't talk.

2. When Chris introduced me to the Barbie song by Aqua. To this day anytime I hear anything by that band it reminds me of him; now it just makes me want to cry.

3. Those on #solaris and #hack knew we had a lovely /kickban relationship, with a little /deop and /topic fun thrown in. The only thing more romantic than IRC flirting is roses.

4. After Chris left iStar he went to a start-up. I forget the name or what they did except that he was writing some sort of mail software for them. He told the story of how one day he was late into the office and provided the following reason: "Sorry, the heather tripped the circuit breaker" For a while after the pop3 daemon was called heatherd. He meant 'heater' of course. I now find this exceptionally ironic. :(

5. Owing to my shyness and fear of people online I flat out refused to arrange to meet Chris. He surprised me by flying up to the Bay Area and coming to Excite (where I was working at the time). I had no choice but to meet him. We sat in on a NANOG talk about DDoS together. On that same trip I got to see him trick a waitress into serving him alcohol by showing her a fake Canadian school ID. He was ever so charming.

6. A spam conference in Washington, DC. Enough said.

7. Listening to him sputter endlessly about a wonderful girl he'd met at work; realizing how happy he seemed.

I begged and begged Chris to come work for Google. I must have asked for his resume 1000 times but he always thought he wasn't good enough. He was 10 times the sysadmin most people I work with are. I can only wonder how different things would be now if I had managed to convince him.

For a long time now there has been a special link on Google for the search query "Chris Portman" that links to my site. It will be there for as long as they'll let me (hopefully forever). I think he would have been amused by that.

To all those who were close and knew him well, his family, etc.. I am so sorry.

Posted by: argv - Heather at November 7, 2005 11:23 PM

I love all the stories...

I want to tell you all a funny one... When my brother and I were really young we had always hated my fathers numerous girlfriends and because I was the youngest, I was easily influenced... So one day, one of my dads girlfriends was at our house and we were not impressed... we decided to take revenge! We went and attemped to let the air out of her tires, but we didn't know how and ended up only taking the cap off... this did nothing of course. Then and remember we were young, we hid her car keys and took money from her purse. This was one of my favourite memories, because we spent all the money on candy for over a month and when my father questioned us, we both said we didn't do it... he didn't know what to do!

Posted by: Chris' sister at November 8, 2005 9:48 PM

I knew Christopher before he was born and saw him for the first time in the Nursery at Mt. Sinai Hospital in Toronto. I was so happy and honoured to babysit Chris and then his little sister Lesley (Muffy). I'll never forget the time when Chris told me that when he grows up he was going to buy the house next door so he could live beside his parents. Chris had a warm and sensitive heart. I will miss him Dearly as will many. Love to all. Cathie

Posted by: Cathie at November 9, 2005 8:54 PM

There were many great moments that Christopher and I had while I looked after him. For example, for lunch on Edgehill I made Chris a grilled cheese sandwich with real cheddar cheese. He thought that was awsome! On another occasion, I invited Christopher to a Toronto Maple Leaf hockey game. We drove down and I parked the car close to Maple Leaf Gardens so we wouldn't have to walk too far. Chris and I enjoyed dinner at the Golden Griddle (pancake house). We enjoyed the Leaf game. On our way back to where my car was parked, Chris said, Oh I don't see your car! We got closer and closer and then we both realized it was towed away!! We ended up getting a ride in a pick-up truck to the car pound! That cost us $185.00 back in the '90's. Chris thought that was really cool!

Posted by: Cathie at November 17, 2005 11:05 PM

I thank all of you for your coments it means a lot to Lesley and me.We miss Chris so much and can only hope that he has found peace.With tears I say goodbye.

Posted by: david Portman Dad of Chris at November 20, 2005 12:35 AM

I just found out today that Chris is dead, and I'm sitting at my computer, tears streaming down my face.

I met Chris 8 or 9 years ago at an IRC meet in Toronto. I liked him right away and we started dating. We had the most amazing first date ever. We both dressed up, me in a dress and him in a suit. He completely swept me off my feet and we ended up having a great time together.

We lost touch but then he got in contact with me saying that he was moving to California. Even though he moved far away we still managed to see each other every year or so. Either when I went there to visit family, or when he came here for Christmas. I never got over him. The first time in California we went to Six Flags with my cousins. We went on all the roller coasters and had lemonade. He also took me to the gardens and we spent an amazing day walking around all the flowers.

The last time I saw him was October of 2003. I had gone to California for a wedding and we went for sushi, he had introduced me to it a long time ago, and pool. We also went for breakfast another day. We lost touch about a year ago. I wish we hadn't. I can't believe he's gone. No matter how long we went without talking to each other, once we made contact again it was always like no time has passed. I'm going to miss Chris. To his family, I would like to send out my condolences. I am so sorry that I missed the memorial services, I would have liked to have met the people who made Chris into such an awesome guy.

I had a dream with Chris in it two days ago. I don't know what we were doing but we were having fun, so I decided to look him up again. This website is what I found. I always knew that Chris was someone extraordinary, maybe that's why I've had a crush on him since the moment I've met him.

Posted by: Evelyn at November 28, 2005 1:35 PM

It's really hard to come to terms with this. I always thought I'd have a time to meet him in person, a time to talk about more things. There are so many things I never said to him.

Posted by: larry at December 9, 2005 11:30 PM

I wasn't much of a Technical Server Unix Guru like Chris was, but he still took the time to help me with my classes when I was learning. He look at me as just another LAN Game Junkie.

I worked with Chris for a few years at Earthlink before moving on. I worked for Steve Dougherty in the Technical Purchasing dept who always player Poker with Chris. Chris and I talked mostly about Computer hardware and what was new coming out, not only for work but for home systems too.

We would go out the backdoor of Earthlink and play Hackey Sac at break times with as many as 10 players. He always made time for me when I had questions. I learned a lot from him.

What amazed me the most was , He never would sleep, I would be playing LAN games late and he would still be on working away.


Chris, thanks for being there for me, I'll make sure to to past on your kindness on to others. I'll leave the light on for you.

Posted by: Hal Pemstein at December 29, 2005 9:46 PM

Happy Birthday Chris.

Posted by: Evelyn at January 26, 2006 9:22 AM

Wow, hard to believe it's coming on a year since I got the news, still think about the little frigger quite often. Am in the process of moving now (closer to downtown TO) and found some old photos of him, made me smile to remember how silly he could be.

Posted by: sonJa at February 6, 2006 5:30 PM

Miss yah Chris..... I run into things weekly that remind me of... hey portman would be proud.. or how would portman do it... or asking if u wanted Mexican food, and ur like sure... so I ask if you want some tacos, and your like okay.. but what are those! walking down the halls, passing by your office where I'd bug you.. hanging the mini canadian flag over your desk... I wish you well, save a desk up there for me!

Posted by: John Dewey at February 17, 2006 3:17 AM

Goodbye son, we all miss you so much,after this one year since you left us.
Love dad

Posted by: David Portman Dad of Chris at February 25, 2006 12:20 AM

More than a year now...

Posted by: Martin Ross at April 14, 2006 6:12 PM

Chris and I had a rocky, hot and cold 10 year relationship. But even at the rockiest or coldest of times we both knew that things would get better again. They always did, right?
Chris saved my life, literally. My biggest regret is not having the opportunity to reciprocate that.
Chris told me several times that he was named after Christopher Robin from Winnie the Pooh. I don't know if that's true or not, or if he was just humoring my bedroom decor that I didn't change since childhood.
After I learned of his passing I went a little off my rocker. I, like all of you, was destroyed with grief. I didn't think anything would ever be right or good again. I made some questionable decisions during that time of grief, one of which resulted in my pregnancy.
March 28, 2006 at 7:56am, my son Christopher Charles was born. Instead of thinking about Chris every day and being momentarily paralyzed with that pang of loss, I think about him every day when I see my son, his namesake. And I have hope.
I don't miss him any less. Things could have ended better between us. But maybe at least certain things in the world can be right and good again.

Posted by: am at April 16, 2006 1:01 AM

Its been a while since I heard about this, and posted the first time. I'm on the road traveling for work and googling around and caame back accross the site. As I site here in my room in the dark I am sadden again by our collective loss but happy I have very good memories of chris. I know your on net with us still chirs how I'd love to talk with you I'm sure I could still learn so much from you friend.

Posted by: jim deleskie at May 1, 2006 7:39 PM

I remember back when Chris and I were around 10 years old, I was over at his dad's house networking our Mac SE's and playing games. He always beat me at Spectre. No suprise there. It seemed he had had the fastest fingers humanly possible, and a mind to match. In a similar instance, he hacked a racing game. He punched in some lines of code and was done before I could ask, "How'd you do that? Can you tell me how?" His response was wise, but dissapointing to a 10-year-old. He said, "If I tell you how, you'll tell someone else how, and they'll tell someone else, and the guy who made the program would not make any money." In hindsight, his logical conclusion preceded all RIAA-esque issues at least 10 years. He was impressively wise and noble even at 10. He had his priorites set. He cared for the livelihood of someone (the programmer) he would never meet or know, more than the meager satisfaction of a close friend. I still remember him by that particular anecdote. You were ahead of your time, Chris.

Posted by: Erik Kalins at May 15, 2006 5:40 PM

Still keep coming back here, to see that picture at the beginning of this page is haunting, can't believe he's gone even though I know he is. Going home to NS in a few weeks and hoping that I get a chance to visit the cottage where Chris loved to visit.
sonJa :)

Posted by: sonJa at June 8, 2006 4:25 PM

I love reading stories about Chris here. I still think about him often. And I still miss him.

Posted by: Evelyn at July 13, 2006 5:15 PM

Happy new year Chris.

Posted by: John at January 17, 2007 2:39 AM

Happy Birthday Chris

Posted by: k at January 26, 2007 1:44 PM

Just one more thing...The reason I tried to find Chris today was that (I'm pretty sure) today was his birthday. I wanted to wish him a happy birthday and put our issues aside and be friends again. I just can't beleive that he is gone. If someone can tell me where to go to pay my last respects and bring some flowers, please let me know. I'd like to say my goodbyes next time I'm in Toronto.

Posted by: Jenna at January 26, 2007 7:02 PM

happy birthday portman. i miss you and think about you all of the time. lov ren

Posted by: renee at January 29, 2007 9:48 AM

God, I miss you Chris.

Happy Birthday

Posted by: argv - heather at February 26, 2007 1:20 AM

I had a dream last night, February 25, and Chris was in it. I had found him and we sat and talked for quite a while. I told him how much I missed him. I hope he knew how much he meant to me.

Posted by: Evelyn at February 26, 2007 1:31 PM

Still thinking of ya buddy.

Posted by: sonJa at March 20, 2007 3:37 PM

Wow, I was just wondering how ol' cjp was doing and I find this news. I haven't talked with chris in years but we knew each other well on IRC, we ran #teen/#love lots other random channels together. Anyway, just wanted to pay my respect to a guru.

Rest in Peace.

Posted by: falken - matt caldwell at March 21, 2007 12:11 PM

Still thinking of you...

Posted by: armin_elec at May 14, 2007 5:57 AM


We miss you terribly.


Posted by: Martin at July 2, 2007 12:59 AM

I miss you.

Posted by: Evelyn at July 6, 2007 10:51 PM

Fondly thinking of you cjp. I miss you a ton.

Posted by: Heather at July 9, 2007 1:45 PM

Thought of Chris today.

Posted by: Evelyn at October 9, 2007 2:06 PM

Dreamed with Chris last night.

Posted by: Evelyn at October 12, 2007 9:16 AM


It's been a few years since you passed and I still miss you brother. I will never forget the fun times we shared and I shall never let your memory fade.

This song reminds me of you:


Yours Always,


Posted by: Mark Sawyer at December 29, 2007 6:48 AM

miss you and love you. always.

Posted by: renee at February 26, 2008 12:17 AM

I knew Chris from InfoRamp (which was bought out by iStar - that's how Chris ended up there). He was 14 or 15 yrs old and the smartest Unix guru i knew. He administered our Solaris servers - which was essentially the entire InfoRamp back-end - I was always baffled at how someone that young could know so much. I've always remembered him and wondered what became of him - I just now found out about his passing.

To his family: my deepest sympathies go out to you.

Posted by: Rashad at March 5, 2008 4:30 PM

rest in peace old friend.

Posted by: dan at March 27, 2008 1:10 PM

I still miss Chris.

Posted by: Evelyn at April 18, 2008 12:01 PM

Chris was a great friend, and I learned a lot from him. I regret not keeping in touch much after the #teen days.

Session Start: Mon Apr 29 03:26:15 1996

_Chris_: narf?
Turbo: hey
_Chris_: netris? :)
Turbo: :)

Rest in peace, friend.

Posted by: Turbo (Mike) at August 8, 2008 10:22 AM

I don't know why I never posted here, but for some reason, today I thought of Chris. It's because of Chris that I met a lot of internet friends, some of whom have posted their thoughts here.

We didn't always get along, and it was always funny explaining to people that my name was Chris, but I wasn't *the* Chris.

We hadn't talked in years, but he was a good guy. Its a testament to him how many people keep drifting by here.

Rest in peace, bud.

Posted by: C-Man - Coldfury (Chris Finch) at November 19, 2008 8:34 AM

I went to high school with Chris. I was a couple of years older than
him, but I remember him as this IT genius and a nice guy. I'm not even
sure I really spoke to him, but I'm still very saddened to hear the

I first came to this site a few years ago but decided to come back and
re-read all the great stories of Chris. It was a pleasure reading
everything that have posted.

My thoughts go out to his family and friends.

Posted by: Andrew at June 14, 2009 10:11 PM

It's been 4 years, and still I miss my friend.
What a special friend you were.

Every now and than I'll google your name, and find a new page dedicated
to you, one that wasn't there the last time I looked.

I hope you're well, where ever you are.

Posted by: Avleen at June 14, 2009 10:25 PM

I miss you Chris. Thought of you today while trifling with one of those sticky questions I'd always ask about.

Posted by: Heather at November 3, 2009 12:37 AM

Was in TO over the weekend Chris and was thinking of you... RIP my 'old' friend

Posted by: Jim DeLeskie at November 29, 2009 7:42 PM

I woke up this morning to a thunderous storm, the likes I haven't seen in ages.

I can only presume that somehow Chris read my post last night, hacked into HAARP and is playing with the weather to provide me with a backdrop for my somber mood.

To all that knew and loved him... Please... PLEASE, forgive my improprieties last night.

Stuck in, tossing and turning in a vat of port and whiffing an argila, and finally.. quietly.. settling into a stupor, I found this site last night.

After reading the first post, I thought it a joke... a HOAX! I didn't believe it.

My Mozilla Scrapbook reminded me of my offence this morning, and felt I had to right it...

I can only say that there are some people in life, that are larger than life. That is to say... not necessarily gregarious, loud, or imposing.

You can always tell these soals are separate, or different from the rest because upon meeting them, it just seems that the moments you spend with them.. just seem to have more weight.

I just can't explain it any other way.

I miss you too Chris, and my condolences to your family and friends.

"Mr. Montgomery"

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